You hear so many things about how you will feel when your child is born but once it happened to us our emotions really kicked in. We both felt an intense and immediate feeling of overwhelming, overpowering love for Coco. It's hard to put into words all the thoughts and feeling that washed over us in the moments just after she was born but suffice it to say it was POWERFUL.
Now that we've had a few days for Coco's birth to sink in, the emotions only continue to expand and deepen. We feel such a powerful sense of love and responsibility to her. We want only the best for her and want to do everything we can to protect her. We want her to be healthy, we want to be healthy for her. We want our families to meet her and to share her to our friends and loved ones. We want her to grow into a happy, loving person and to be filled with as much love for herself as we have for her. The list goes on and on and we are just taking it day by day and processing our feelings as we experience them.
Every since Coco was born, really even weeks before, Chris and I have both been very emotional. I was walking NeNe last Wednesday morning and burst into tears spontaneously. These were not sad tears rather they were tears of joy at the realization that our daughter was on her way. Just today, I was stretching at the gym and as I stretched I was looking at pictures of Coco on my iPhone and immediately started crying and smiling. I am so happy! When we got home from the gym, we were looking at our blogs and reading comments people have left regarding our posts and Chris was moved to tears. Just yesterday, Chris was sitting peacefully with Coco on the couch and a tear ran down his cheek. I asked him what was wrong and responded "nothing, I am just so happy." Amazing...
The emotional experience we are having is a blessing. It feels raw and makes us feel vulnerable but we are soaking it up. Coco is already bringing out things in us that were buried a little deeper before but have no surfaced. Thank God for her and this wonderful experience.